Lying in bed at 2am with my mind racing. “what’s the point of life? Does anything I do matter?” These thoughts turn to panic. “What is the meaning of mortal life in an infinite universe? How did the universe just come into being?” Starting to feel sick at this point… I then pick up my […]
Read More Blog #10 Light at the end of the tunnelWake up 5am. Cold plunge. Drive to the gym for a heavy ass workout. Get back in time to wake kids up ready for the day… Or not. I would love to say thats how I start each day… Truth is, I’ve been in hibernation mode since November, lazing around polishing off packs of biscuits […]
Read More Blog #9 – Life of dadPart of growing up naturally involves growing apart from old friends or making new ones. Add in having a baby to that and things speed up… alot At the age of 17, I was pretty sociable, I had three separate friendship groups and always had someone to talk to or meet with. The first group […]
Read More blog #8 – Friendships“kids having kids”, “Probably living on benefits”, “How did that happen?”, “Don’t you want to enjoy life?”… These are just some of the comments that have been directed at me or asked to me but are common across most young parents. Within this blog I am going to explain how I dealt and still to […]
Read More Blog #7 -perceptionIt’s late, around 10:45pm. Tears in my eyes. I’m driving by myself around 80mph on an empty country road. I’m coming up to a sharp bend. I have about 4 seconds to rapidly slow down, or not… 3…2… Rewind 10 years– I’m at high school, I’m in year 9 and life’s pretty good, I’m fairly […]
Read More Blog #6 – The darkest dayIt’s a sunny Tuesday late morning in July 2020, I’m working from home. The ITV show “This Morning” was on the tv in the background, someone had just won a few grand playing “Spin The Wheel”.. then suddenly I heard a shriek upstairs.. Lotty: “Oh my god…” Me: “What?” Lotty: “Ohhhhh my god”. Lotty thunders […]
Read More Blog #5 – It’s a boy!The first 10 days of fatherhood were nothing like I had imagined. In my head I had it pretty well planned out, I thought we might be in hospital for a day or two then be able to go home and settle but it would take just under two weeks for us to leave. After […]
Read More Blog #4 – The first 10 days of fatherhoodThe best/ worst day of my life… the birth of my daughter from my point of view. I struggle thinking too much about this time, thinking back I see the memorise with a hazy filter, a whisky coloured nightmare. The memory is clouded by heat, pain, exhaustion.. but then things get brighter and clearer. Friday […]
Read More Blog #3 – The LabourAfter 3 weeks of discussions, a holiday to Spain, a trip to the Abortion Clinic, painful talks with parents, more discussions… we decided we both wanted to keep the baby. This idea of “Keeping” a baby might seem strange to some depending on view points of abortion but I will not go into that on […]
Read More Blog #2 – 9 months to grow upMy senses tingle as the sea wind run’s through me, the sound of the waves calmly washing onto shore. No one in mind. No stress. Just me and the ocean. Me and the world. Me and the “James… I’m pregnant! I don’t know what to do”… oh fuck. At 11:23 on a Tuesday, I was […]
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